Dear Musical Memoirs (4)

Dear Reminder of Faith,


Nickel Creek Why Should the Fire Die?
Doubting Thomas

I've been a long time fan of Nickel Creek- They're a unique folk blend of vocals, guitar, fiddle and mandolin that is just easy to love. The first song I heard of theirs was actually on a mixed CD I received from a boy my freshman year of high school- oh mixed CDs. I'm glad men have found other ways of conveying their insterest.

But out of that awkward gift came a new interest in their style of music. I bought their albums and the song I'm actually speaking of in this letter is from their final album. Since then they have tragically disbanded, and I listen to their discography as if I'm their psychotic ex-girlfriend, wishing they'd come back.

Like most people, college was a time of questioning for me. You are exposed to so much "new" with only your acquired knowledge base of 18-21 years, and frankly it's not enough. I do have a faith in God, but I'm not so sure I'm of the same faith in the context it is for others, and frankly, I don't think I should be.

But let's step out of a religious context for a moment. We all have insecurities, questions, doubts... how do we cope with that? My understanding of faith is not just faith in higher power, but faith in your goals, decisions, aspirations, beliefs- if we hodge podge and muddle what we intrinsically know with the condemnation and judgmental tendancies that bombard us everyday we can lose ourselves. If you don't get to where you want to be by being yourself, you should go somewhere else.

I love this song, Doubting Thomas, because even if you do not believe in God, it says, "It's okay if you don't know everything. Stay true to your convictions, and it will all be okay." My one conviction is love- and I'll stick with that.

Doubting Thomas from Kristopher Rutherford on Vimeo.

LoveAlways,
Gnarleigh